Rascal Flatts - "What Hurts The Most"

 

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
that don't bother me.
I can take a few tears now and then
and just let them out.
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
even though going on with you gone still upsets me.
There are days every now and again
I pretend I'm ok but that's not what gets me.

What hurts the most
was being so close.
And havin so much to say
and watching you walk away.
And never knowin what could have been
and not seeing that loving you
is what I was tryin to do.

Its hard to deal with the pain of loseing you every where I go
but I'm doing it
its hard to force that smile when i see our old friends and I'm alone.
Still harder
getting up getting dressed livin with this regret but I know
if i could do it over
i would trade give away for the words that i saved in my heart that are left unspoken.

What hurts the most
was being so close.
And havin so much to say
and watching you walk away.
And never knowin what could have been
and not seeing that loveing you
is what I was tryin to do.

What hurts the most
was being so close.
And havin so much to say
and watching you walk away.
And never knowin what could have been
and not seeing that loveing you
is what I was tryin to do.

And not seeing that love in you that's what i was trying to do

然后准备穿过一条小街,正好一辆蓝色POLO要拐弯.开车的是个老爷爷,看样子得有六十多七十了,车后座上是他老伴(应该不出意料的话),正兴奋地看外面的风景,脸上是幸福的微笑.我因注视他们而停了两秒,然后我给他们让路,冲老爷爷微笑,老爷爷对我还以更灿烂的微笑.在阳光下,多么美好.

 

小玄子和我说过,以后我买车了,副驾驶的位子就只属于她,如果她在车上,那个座别人都不能坐.因为那个座感觉上离我最近.不过那样的话她就要辅助我的驾驶了,比如帮我看地图接手机什么的.要是按我的想法,她应该和那位老爷爷幸福的老伴一样,坐到后面去,一来舒服,二来安全.开车的时候,理应是我为她服务,她就应该享受享受风景或者美梦.坐前面的话只是视线稍微好一点,不过我想如果她坐前面的话,视线在哪还不一定呢.

 

当然,以上的都不是问题,因为我肯定按她的意思走(打不过呀没办法).现在唯二的问题就是买车钱和买啥车了.

十一回家了一趟,也是今年回家的第四趟.见了好多人,或许还没都见完.我发现自己对于曾经的家开始越来越陌生了,可能我的确要离那里越来越远,回去团聚的机会也少多了.不知怎的,这次回家的愿望特别强烈,仿佛我并不是要回家,而是要回到某个年代某个感觉上去,那个样子我实在太怀念了.

 

做保险的表弟开始上路了,嘴里和脑子里都是工作的事,干劲十足的样子.我很喜欢他这样,目标清晰,自己不会犯嘀咕,哪怕当初顶着家庭多么大的压力.做事的人是需要性格的,做大事的人更需要强烈的个性.我不行,太软了,而且目标不太清晰,只能适应环境而已.

 

与逯学军舅舅小谈过一次.我希望他能够再投入一些精力,推出自己的专辑,毕竟这么多年了,休息差不多了.同样的话我也和杭天讲过,我好想听到杭哥的新歌.他们基本都成功地摆脱了艺人的身份,都能够很自由地生活,不用很功利地做音乐.相比来说,逯舅舅的生活习惯可能更加与常人相同,他优越的职业也让他完全从自身喜好出发去做音乐.虽是如此,他热爱的音乐却也能得到大众的认可,这实在难得.可见诚实的作品永远能够感动绝大多数人,而世人的善良却往往被阴谋者所利用.在成为不必要的粉丝后,他们就很难分辨纯洁与恶俗了.

 

突然又有强烈的想回到大学时代的感觉.那时候咱们是市场关心不到的人群,根本不会考虑这些蠢问题,不是么.